reality – Mimi's Thoughts

Loved and blessed

I remember when I was totally driven by everything that happened around me.

One bad event could dictate my mood for weeks.

In 2019 I went for a sisters vacation with my siblings and one of the souvenirs I cherished was a mug with the inscription ‘loved’. For some reason, it comforted me through a bad experience that occurred just as I returned from the trip.

Earlier in the year, I shared how my friend Helen the Wonder woman had given me a mug with ‘blessed’ written on it. I loved it so much. I even cringed sometimes when my husband used it. I’m not much of a sharer.

These two mugs broke. Not on the same day…but

… What thrilled me with the breaking is how I cleaned up and said the words ‘I am still loved’ and ‘I’m blessed to have received this from Helen’.

I know me… A few years ago, I would have had a mood for days…feeling less loved or not so blessed.

I’m glad that I’m grown up enough… Not by age but in mindfulness….to know that I’m loved and blessed no matter what.

And He Wasn’t Even Real

Who was your first Crush?

I couldn’t have been more than 10 years old.

We would gather to watch. Episode after episode.

We got them from the local video rental shop.

I think we may have had a schedule because Uncle Peter, Uncle Yashi and Aunty Angie were always present on the days we watched.

Maybe it was Tuesday and Thursday evenings… And weekends too. I think that’s what I remember.

It was so long ago…

Everyone had a favourite. For Mummy and Aunty Angie it was Alexis.

Daddy loved Blake. Sometimes I think he wished he was Blake.

We watched every single episode… Dynasty 1981… 9 seasons.

I watched and waited… Just to see Jeff. Always.

To me, he was the ideal man. I was going to find myself a man exactly like him when I grew up…

It didn’t matter that he wasn’t real.

As I grew up and became a teenager, he was replaced… Of course… By real humans.

…but when the question comes up, the answer is always Jeff Colby.

Jeff Colby is a character played by John James (now 67 years old) in Dynasty and The Colbys.

Finding IT

I remember the first time I wrote an abstract short story on my Facebook page. A lot people hit the like button and then a good number thought it was a story about my husband and I. They even worked my second cousin into the story because they know almost everything about me.

When you live in a small town, it’s pretty hard for your Facebook to not be filled with people who actually know you.

I made a few more attempts. This time, I actually wrote about myself with a few lessons underneath it all but the comments made me realise they were reading it wrong. That’s when I decided that Facebook wasn’t my audience.

I sought refuge in a safe place where people who read actually read because they want to and not because they are friends with me. It has been an amazing feeling so far.

Today, I have strangers following blog and reading and liking my scribbles and that fills my heart with so much joy.

I think this should be the same for everything we do. I think we should always find the right place, the right time, the right moment… Don’t force it in the wrong place, time or moment.

**Feels really good to see this list… everytime**

Nowhere but comfort

Tell us about your favorite pair of shoes, and where they’ve taken you.

“Mummy, it’s like you wear these shoes everyday”

…but how could they not become every day wear? Black and comfortable can barely escape that torture.

That’s what my son decided to say to me randomly one day in a public place. I looked around, feeling a bit embarrassed but apparently no one else had heard him. He was not wrong though. Coincidentally, I had just said similar words to myself that day.

I remember the day I was given that pair of shoes, I had put my feet in and observed that they were comfortable. I didn’t know that they would become every day wear.

When I saw the prompt I pondered on “where have they taken you?”… Everywhere… but nowhere particular to remember or tell a story about.

In all the everywheres and nowheres, one place has been sure, comfort.

Truth

You speak the truth and you assume that people believe you.

They don’t.

The world is in love with lies.

They are drawn to lies.

They are repelled by truth.

They prefer to hear the lies. It sounds very close to what they believe.

Nevertheless, I choose truth.

Maybe that’s why my mum named me so… Mimi (Truth).